Taurus woman obsessed with a Virgo

by Lilliana
(Maryland)

I'm a Taurus woman, obsessed with this Virgo man. I've never been so insanely in love before. Mind you we met over 2 years ago working for the summer at Panera and haven't seen each other since. But the love we had was so strong. All our colleagues teased us about visiting one another when the other wasn't scheduled.

He was leaving in the winter for China and I was going back to school in the fall. He wanted me to go over to China with him, but I declined. Honestly, I've regretted it ever since. We never told one another we liked each other. Never did anything physically. I always thought it was obvious and when the time came that he liked me enough he'd tell me. It never came. Instead I gave him my favorite cds to burn to his computer and he never gave them back. I still think about him everyday and sadly check his facebook almost everyday. It's sick!

I feel like it's so unhealthy to feel this way. I've had every man I've ever set my eyes on. Except for him. Every guy I've dated since I've compared to him. I've legit gone through 10 boyfriends in the last 2 years because I want someone just like him and they don't measure up. My passion for love hasn't been the same since. After a year of not talking he texted me and told me he had moved to Atlanta and I should visit him so he could give me back my cds.

It was so random. I never went because I worried about looking crazy. He moved back north a few months later. We've made plans a few times to meet and he's ditched me each time to sit at home and post facebook status', as though to say "hey I'd rather sit at home on the computer than see you". I know I'm crazy. But I can't stand feeling this way over someone I barely see anymore.

I can't help it. Though he hasn't had a girl friend since he's met me, so maybe he fells the same? Hahah, or he's gay which would make me feel better. But I wonder if I should tell him I fell in love with him summers ago and I think about him all the time? I've never been so upfront with my feelings. I'm afraid he'll just ignore me afterward for some reason. Though I know he thinks about me as well judging from the random emails and texts. I've never been this confused or thought I was crazy. Please someone give me some advice!

I don't know how to move on in life!