Confused by Taurus Ex

by CapLady
(Earth)

We have been on and off for about a year and a half (sometimes he breaks it off, or on the odd occasion I have broken it off), the last time he broke it off because he was "thinking about me too much" (we have a complicated relationship - it's not a relationship in the true sense, although I care deeply for him, he has told me he doesn't feel the same way in the past).

Both of us had come out of long term relationships when we met, and he has been in a couple of relationships during our breaks - I had tried dating, but was never truly interested in it - only really wanted him.

I told him when he broke it off last time that we can only ever be friends now, that I don't like the whole on-again-off-again deal, it doesn't sit well with me. He seemed to have accepted that.

We work fine as friends - I care for him no matter what, and he respects me as a friend.

I'm just sooo confused right now... it has been several months and I started dating again, moving on so to speak, (we have always remained friends during the splits and still catching up - as friends only)

Then I started getting texts from him while he's overseas saying he's been thinking about me a fair bit and we have to do the trip together next time (he has never included me in his trips before, or even hinted to it). We broke up because he was thinking too much about me, couldn't concentrate on other things in his life... and he's STILL thinking about me?!

He's still overseas now, but texting me constantly... I'm confused about what he wants from me - I know that we're both drawn together... but I don't want to be played. I genuinely care about him, and would like a future with him, but I can't see that happening.

Can a Taurus male please give me some insight into what is going on in his mind? Is he testing me with these breaks? Or using me as a substitute (we were apparently in a kind-of-relationship - whatever that means?)