Capricorn man jealous and intimidated

by Nick
(Lincoln UK)

I get jealous and intimidated when people are more social than I am. I have been in bands, I write songs, sing and play the guitar and I have been on stage and enjoyed the limelight, yet it never came to much and certainly NEVER gave me any social standing. Guys in bands get girls is a MYTH.

I think that I am just socially inept but I don't like going out on my own, you need friends with you to go out so I am stuck! I used to be one for going out and having fun until I hit around 24-25. Now I am 30 and I feel like my life is over in that sense.

I am not the CLUBBING type, I just stand in the corner and tap my foot, then, if I get drunk enough I make a fool of myself on the dance floor! I love meeting people but I have had bad experiences with meeting people and women. They just don't know how to take me.

I feel like a tag-along most of the time. I wish I was different but that's just me. They say Capricorns are successful, alas I am not. I am unemployed and I work voluntarily 2 days a week. Sometimes I enjoy it but the people I work with can't seem to handle my personality and they seem to tell me what I am doing wrong too much! ARGH!